Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Hoping the magic and happiness of the Christmas season stays with you all though the New Year!

Naquy, my sister dog

Naquy before the surgery: she couldn't
stretch her legs

I already wrote about Naquy here on the blog, but I will talk about her again. In March (2015) Naquy will complete 14 years old. I'm 19, so as you can see we are together most part of my life. Years ago she had a terrible disease. Veterinarians didn’t know what it was. Until one day it was discovered: a bone disease. Fortunately we found the perfect remedy. Naquy still takes this remedy today and will have to take it forever. If not, she stops to walk and feels much pain. Years passed and she formed calluses on front legs (as you can see on the photo).

Earlier this year she had a bad cold and the vet did a general checkup. He said the callus became an open fracture and she had to be operated. I was afraid. She's an old lady for surgeries and also she’s so small and sensitive. Her surgery was last Thursday and I only saw her the next day. She was completely "plateau". Luckily she has improved a lot. She isn’t walking yet because she hasn’t confidence in his new legs, but with time everything will get better!

Naquy after the surgery with her legs stretched, still with
bandages and fleeced hair 

Vacations?

Reportedly “who feels a lot, keep quiet”. I don’t know if you know this saying, I think it's Brazilian. Well, I'm college vacation, but I think this hasn’t been enough. Maybe it's a small crisis of my "first year away from home". I don’t feel desire to come back to Ascurra, actually, only on weekends to visit family. I haven’t mentioned this on the blog yet, but a few months to here I feel bad. My nails are brittle, my cuticle is always poorly made (which never happened before); I literally can’t look at my hair - three years ago I only received compliments from my shiny curls, but now, especially after smoothing, I don’t know what are split ends: because I have a thousand tips on each end; I'm overweight I would like to be and the biggest problem is that I can’t lose weight. Of course I'm not above the healthy weight, but before I decided to live in Blumenau I practiced a lot of exercises. My legs are flabby and my abdomen is soft. Many people say that's bullshit, that I'm obsessed… But I’m really uncomfortable with this and how I don’t have time, I can’t go to the gym. To not to be really fat (because it's my genetics) I just eat a little. I'm not starving, but if I could I eat more, my stomach growls and if I eat more I feel very guilty. I will not get sick from it: I eat as is necessary amount of meat, vegetables and fruit. But when I was doing exercises I could eat sweets without worrying, because I could burn these calories.

This weekend I'm going to the beach with my boyfriend, my mother and my grandmother. I honestly don’t want to go, but my mother insisted, because she wants to buy our Christmas gifts. I ordered a flat iron for hair to my mom and my boyfriend will give me books. If you have any idea what I can ask my grandmother, I'm accepting suggestions. I don’t feel excited for Christmas.

I believe in ant logic. Little by little we can do much.
Sometimes the world seems to be too big for us, but our
persistence makes us biggest.

This year was, certainly, a year of major changes in my life. For 2015 I have planned many changes. I can’t tell you now, because one of the reasons for my "small depression" can read it and cause me problems. There are actually some people who are leaving me, in a way, with a kind of happiness sick. I want to turn me off of these people next year, probably in the first half of 2015, if all goes well. I need the right door to open at the right time, so I need to wait for the right moment and this makes me anxious! After all, patience wins all obstacles and that's what I need right now.

I work until December 19 and this same day I’ll come to Ascurra. Maybe I'll go to the beach. But I want to sleep a lot and to forget a little of this world. Lately there are few things that make me relax: my boyfriend, my guinea pigs, to sleep, to read books and your blogs!

“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself. And sometimes good things fall apart, so better things can fall together.” Audrey Hepburn